Juanita Cannan Photography

Happy New Year

2012-01-06T17:05:00.000-08:00

One of my goals this year is to take more photographs with me in them! We did not even have a family photograph at the end of the year to be able to send out Christmas cards and it made me sad. Our family is continually growing and changing and as I help others document that, I want to also document that for myself. I finally have a remote again for my camera and my family has been warned...I intend to use it.

Hopefully you will be seeing a lot more of me on my blog and my children will have photographs to look back on of us all together, being us. I am not a resolution gal, but this is definitely something I plan to be intentional about this year. Happy New Year!

52 Week Project - Week 51

2011-12-30T20:30:00.000-08:00

We have had a wonderful end to our year with my husband on break from school and taking extra time from work to spend time as a family. On one of our days we headed up to the beautiful Spring Lake and the kids cycled as we walked, in the great outdoors. There is something so special about slowing down and appreciating what is around you, all the little details. It all really is so amazing and deserves our time and attention.

52 Week Project - Week 50

2011-12-30T20:01:00.000-08:00

At this time of year, I think more than any other, it is so easy to get caught up in all the gifts. I have said it before and I will say it again, the gift I treasure the most is my family! They truly are God's gift to me, I love them with all my heart and am so incredibly proud of who they are and who they are becoming...but we have barely started.

This life is the blink of an eye in the bigger picture of eternity; our bodies will not last forever, but our souls, well that is another story. The greatest gift I can give my children is the chance of an eternity with their creator, the one who loves them more than I ever can or will.

52 Week Project - Week 49

2011-12-29T23:07:00.000-08:00

OK so you can't actually see the Christmas trees and this is just an iphone snap, but I love it because it is my family and I love my family. Plus I'm so rarely IN the photograph (which really needs to change). We took this the weekend we went to choose and cut down our Christmas, as is our tradition. We drive out to Celesta Farms, in Sebastapol (which is now a much further drive, but still worth it). After finding the perfect tree and sawing it down, we drink our free hot cider, hot chocolate or coffee, eat the cookies and watch whilst daddy ties the tree to the top of our minivan. Good times!

52 Week Project - Week 48

2011-12-29T22:01:00.000-08:00

December 1st was the birthday of two of my loves. My husband, my best friend, my biggest source of support and encouragement and my baby, my sweet little Asia...no longer a baby, now she is 4! She was the best birthday present he ever received and she continues to be a gift to the both of us.

Love these two SO much!

52 Week Project - Week 47

2011-12-27T21:22:00.000-08:00

Week 47 was Thanksgiving. We have so much to be thankful for and our friends are far from the least of those. With all of my family overseas and most of my husband's in other states our friends fill what would otherwise be a huge void in our lives. These dear friends are as close as family and often open their home to us and many others.

We would all be so much better off if we could always view the glass as half full instead of half empty.

52 Week Project - Week 46

2011-12-27T17:20:00.000-08:00

We all have a happy place, somewhere that time does not matter, where we feel calm and at peace and rest. Our spirit is free to soar. For me that place is the woods, for my children it has to be the beach. I like the beach, don't get me wrong, but on a lovely hot day. My children would happily go to the beach any time of year, in swimsuits or bundled up in their wintry garb, they don't care...and they would gladly spend hours there...oblivious to their mother's freezing extremities.

You really need sound-effects to go with these ones :)

Ah fun times!

52 Week Project - Week 45

2011-12-15T17:16:00.000-08:00

Technology continues to progress at an alarming rate, the desire to be continually entertained and always doing something is hard to control. Even children these days have cell phones and ipads, or LeapPads. Sometimes I wonder where it will all end. The childhood that I had, seems to be a thing of the past, let alone the childhood of the generation before mine.

We limit our children's exposure to so much of it, yet it is all around them. One thing that has been a huge blessing since our recent move has been the fact that there are so many families around us. Our children spend more time outdoors playing with friends than they were ever able to before and I love it!

But there are the classics; the LEGO and checkers or chess, a pack of playing cards and yes, even Hungry Hippos. These games have stood the test of time and can still bring as much enjoyment as all of today's high-tech offerings, with the added bonus of actually interacting with your opponents. I hope my grandchildren and great-grandchildren will still be able to enjoy them, no matter what else time brings.

52 Week Project - Week 44

2011-12-13T21:51:00.000-08:00

She may have been wearing fairy wings and a tutu but she was in it to win and she loved every moment. If she had not won, however, she would still have enjoyed every minute, that's how she is. Life is fun!

We do our best and win or lose we keep on smiling...unless we are incredibly tired and then we may or may not have a meltdown. Hugs from mommy will normally make all things right again, unless mommy is the source of frustration, bringing aforementioned meltdown.

That's my girl!

52 Week Project - Week 43

2011-12-10T09:32:00.000-08:00

I love this. I love that he has turned that corner where he used to read because he had to and now he reads because he loves to. I remember as a child, getting totally lost in my books and I have been excited for my own children to reach that point. It is a great feeling and I look forward to many years as he outgrows our chair-and-a-half and loses time for himself.

52 Week Project - Week 42

2011-12-09T14:49:00.000-08:00

This is my nephew, but in all honesty, I think it could be just about any little boy out there. The focus, the concentration, the complete oblivion to anybody else around. They get lost in their toys and I don't think they ever really outgrow that trait.

52 Week Project - Week 41

2011-12-08T10:03:00.000-08:00

*Just as a reminder, this is a personal project I am undertaking this year, in order to shoot more and share more. Each week of 2011 will have a corresponding favorite photograph; snapshots from my life.

The end of the year is far too rapidly approaching and I need to catch up on posting for this project. Keep checking back, you might see a sudden flurry of activity. This was from week 41.

My three little ragamuffins. They fill my heart! Of course we have days with whining and fighting and telling tales on one another (no pretense here of a perfect family, with perfectly well behaved children at all times) but they are the best of friends. They really do love each other and what more could a mother ask for?

Their relationships with each other will change over the years, but I will have the proof of the love. As I look at this photograph I can almost fast forward to the teenage years and I have high hopes that they will look out for one another when we cannot be there. The big brother with his arms around his sisters, fending off all his friends who are vying for their affections. He is a great brother, but I am far from ready for those days. It kind of terrifies me!

One day at a time, living in the now...sometimes that is all we can, or should, do.

52 Week Project - Week 40

2011-12-07T21:48:00.000-08:00

My children are so good for me. They constantly remind to loosen up and lighten up. Our lives can be filled with 'should' when maybe we just need to breathe and think about what we might want to do, what might refresh us and lift our spirits.

These three could spend hours just running from the waves, they love it! I love to watch them having fun, the smiles on their faces, the giggles and squeals, the exhausted shivering when all is said and done and I get to bundle them up in a towel. One day they will, most likely, grow out of this and calmly sit and watch the waves as they munch on their lunch, but for now I will enjoyed the wasted lunches they were too busy having fun to eat. I will take my snapshots and try to think of the things that bring me such joy.

What do your children teach you?

The Engels' Sneak Peek {Bay Area Family Portrait Photographer}

2011-12-06T21:52:00.000-08:00

Our first shoot date we were rained out, but the following weekend we could not have asked for a more beautiful morning. This adorable family, not only got up at the crack of dawn, they even bathed their kids and made it down to Crissy Field an hour after sunrise. Amazing. I was duly impressed!

I am not a morning person, as my husband will confirm, but the light was gorgeous and made it all worthwhile. There was not even a hint of fog, the sky was perfectly blue and we were able to get the bridge in the background as we had hoped for.This family was fun and relaxed. Photographing younger children, but really with any age, this is key. Children will pick up on any stress or tension and this is a time for laughter and fun and enjoying being together. Let the little things go and go with the flow.

This pair are great parents and the love they have for their boys is clearly evident. I love it, especially, when a father is not afraid to show affection, we need more dads like this in the world. We got some family shots, parent and child and even a few with just mom and dad. How often has that happened since your wedding day?

Hattie and Kurt I hope you enjoy your sneak peek, your full gallery should be up in just a few more days.

52 Week Project - Week 39

2011-11-22T21:59:00.000-08:00

I love this photo, I love that children have no personal space boundaries. A ride for one, would be way more fun with three, right? This is my daughter in the front, with two little buddies behind her. We, the parents, are all good friends and as we embarked on the journey of parenthood, our children joined us.

I remember when my husband first brought me to California, it was a whole new beginning. A new country, new home, no friends and so many unknowns. I was very shy and would prefer for him to do the speaking, after all, my accent drew attention that I had no desire for.

That was thirteen years ago and so much has changed. This really does feel like home and a large part of that is the many wonderful friends that we have made over the years. We became friends as young marrieds, some were still single and brought their spouses into our little mix and we went on to have families together. What fun and what a blessing.

We are all so much busier these days than we were back then, but on birthdays, or play dates or other gatherings when we all get together, there is so much joy and so much laughter and an ease and familiarity that can only come with time. These are the people I can turn to in times of need, these are the people I can share my frustrated moments with. Friends are those who listen and know when to do just that, when to respond, or when to pray. Friends know you!

What are the things that you cherish most about your friendships? I would love to hear.

52 Week Project - Week 38

2011-11-20T21:47:00.000-08:00

I love trees. There are people who would rather be in the mountains, or at a beach, or in the countryside, but there is something about being in the woods that captures me. There is a certain mystery, a romanticism. Old weathered leaves coupled with new shoots of life. The sound of a stream, or a bird, or the crunching underfoot. Whatever 'it' is, stirs something within me that excites me. I can breathe more deeply and feel more fully.

We recently took the children to Muir Woods, a place that is amazing, but also throws me for a loop. Where else would you find paved paths, in a wood? I understand that it makes life easier for families with strollers, or the disabled in wheelchairs but I cannot truly enjoy my woods experience until we have ventured onto the trails. It takes away from the natural and brings in the man-made and I want to enjoy nature in all it's glorious natural beauty. Don't even get me started on the entrance fee! Our visit was on a National Parks Free Day, for which I am grateful.

52 Week Project - Week 37

2011-11-18T17:02:00.000-08:00

I love roses, the way they look and the way they smell. The most perfect of flowers. Yes they can grow in many, many places, but they remind me of my home country. An English Rose, a country garden, tea with scones and clotted cream (sigh).

I appreciate Anne Bronte's sentiment, that often with beauty there will come sacrifice, hard work, maybe even pain. We should not expect for everything to be easy and beautiful. It is not a right, or a foregone conclusion. Beauty must be protected, treasured, fought for. How often we yearn for life to be easier, whatever that may mean, at any time. Yet are we prepared for the thorns that will accompany? We need to embrace the hardships, the struggles and difficulties and then we will truly see the beauty that is already before us and value it all the more.

52 Week Project - Week 36

2011-11-16T21:33:00.000-08:00

With Arran and Bryttain in school again, Asia and I have had our mornings together, on our own. She is such an easy, happy little girl and her sweet smile can brighten up the dullest day. She has energy and enthusiasm and a zest for life. She is my little friend, she accompanies me on errands, or walks, we read together and explore together and I cherish these moments. I know that, all too soon, she also will be in school, and these special days are numbered.

It is a privilege to watch her grow and learn and know that I play a part in shaping the person she is becoming.

52 Week Project - Week 35

2011-11-14T21:19:00.000-08:00

The day did not start off all smiles. It was traumatic, to say the least. I was one parent, taking two, very anxious kids to a new school and I could only be in one place at a time. There were tears, many tears...and then I left the school with my little Asia and sat in the minivan and I cried. I had had to leave both my children in tears and felt like they would feel abandoned and as though I had not been there for them. Their fear-filled, tear drenched faces will be etched in my memory for ever, as their arms reached out for me. I felt like a horrible mother, a failure!

Our role as parents though, is to encourage our children in new things. To allow them to spread their wings, in safe places, to give them the freedom they can handle, knowing that they will always have a place of love and security to return to. As they grow and learn, their world expands, their little minds will never be the same.

By the end of their first day they were all smiles, with stories of new friends made and wonderful teachers. There were rough days that followed, it was not over in one day, but we all knew that it would be okay.

52 Week Project - Week 34

2011-10-16T23:32:00.000-07:00

*Just as a reminder, this is a personal project I am undertaking this year, in order to shoot more and share more. Each week of 2011 will have a corresponding favorite photograph.

Well I have had week 34's photograph picked out for a while...but I am stumped on a quote for this one...and have been getting nowhere fast! So I decided to go ahead and post it anyway, instead of holding the rest up and I need YOUR input! I can come back and add the quote later.

In the last few days of finishing up at our old house, the house was pretty much empty. They did a great job of keeping themselves entertained for a long stretch, and then we would set up the laptop and let them watch a movie. Arran is here, playing a game on daddy's iphone and I think the movie had ended, based on the fact that nobody is actually looking at the screen anymore.

They are so wonderful at just hanging out together and truly enjoy each others' company (for a good 70% of the time, I would estimate)!

So if you have any ideas for a suitable quote, please let me know in the comments, or facebook or e-mail me. Let me know if it is something you have made up, or if the quote is credited to somebody, so that I can include that too. I'll keep my thinking cap on as well and hopefully week 34 will be complete before the end of the year, as I finish up this project.

52 Week Project - Week 33

2011-10-03T19:05:00.000-07:00

*Just as a reminder, this is a personal project I am undertaking this year, in order to shoot more and share more. Each week of 2011 will have a corresponding favorite photograph.

We have all had days like that. We are just done with the day! The ten days following our move, were exhausting and boring and just full of the mundane tasks like sorting through 'stuff' that was not moving with us and of course the cleaning.

My poor dear children. They were able to spend some time with various friends, who took pity on us, and them, but there were several days when they just had to come with us and suffer through it. Quality time was most certainly at a minimum and we were all pushed to our limits. This was the cute, sad yet adorable sight in the back of our van on one of those days. They were thoroughly exhausted, I mean how often does a seven year old fall asleep in the car, when you are only driving thirty minutes? Long road trip - maybe, but never on a short trip like that.

Love, love them so much!

Little Boy's Superhero Sign

2011-09-29T18:24:00.000-07:00

Do you have a son who loves superheroes, or at least the idea of them? I do! He said he wanted a superhero room, but there wasn't a particular superhero he wanted, it was more the idea, and the superhero colors, apparently. Needless to say, his room is progressing slowly.

So I decided to make him a sign for his room and next up is working on a cape and mask to hang in there too.

I love how it turned out, so I decided to share it with anyone who might be interested.

I had it printed as an 11"x14", had it mounted and lustre coated.

I have uploaded the jpeg to mediafire, a free file hosting site, so any and all are welcome to download it for free. Enjoy!

http://www.mediafire.com/?dpalpqrd6xc3kc3

52 Week Project - Week 32

2011-09-28T20:02:00.000-07:00

*Just as a reminder, this is a personal project I am undertaking this year, in order to shoot more and share more. Each week of 2011 will have a corresponding favorite photograph.

This photograph was taken on the morning of our official moving day, August 13th, 2001, far too early in the morning!

We did not move far, in the grand scheme of things, but it signified a lot of change for our family. We had to leave behind the most wonderful school for our children, some of our best friends, and a comfortable way of life that we had become quite used to. The rhythms and patterns and routines that made up our family whilst we lived there, have changed significantly.

The change is not bad, but it is change and it takes time to transition as a family to a whole new way of life.

My little disclaimer. I have enjoyed finding quotes to go with each photograph for this project, but I always make sure to find out who the person is that I am quoting, if I do not already know them. I won't be quoting anybody who I find totally offensive or who I consider inappropriate. I can assure you I had no idea who Dave Mustaine was! But it did make me chuckle and the quote was completely relevant...even if his style of music is not quite my cup of tea! ;p

How to make a Camera Strap Cover

2011-09-26T10:00:00.000-07:00

A few weeks ago, when I was exhausted from packing up a house as we prepared to move, my husband had to unexpectedly fly out of town for the weekend to attend a family funeral. There were 101 things that needed to get done, I was overwhelmed and I just needed a break. I realized I needed a creative outlet, a new little project. It was a good time to make myself a camera strap cover!

I was bored of my standard strap, and let's face it, black and yellow do not exactly coordinate nicely with the majority of outfits, not a high cuteness factor going on there! (I guess now would also be a good time to apologize for my lack of makeup or cute outfit...I was home alone with three kids, no husband, and no plan for leaving the house - thank you for your understanding!)

This was an easy to make item. It did not take long at all and could be kept as simple, or jazzed up as much as you would like. I have not attempted a tutorial before and in hindsight realize it would be better to take more photographs along the way, but you get the idea. Let me know if it all makes sense or if you have any questions.

I started out knowing that I wanted something kind of neutral for my background and went exploring my fabric stash. But I also wanted a pop of color to prevent it feeling too drab, so I bought a couple of spools of ribbon (at only $1 each) from Michaels.

Start by cutting two rectangles. Each should be 1" longer than the length of strap you want covered and 1" wider.

I'm not sure this next step is entirely necessary, but I had fusible interfacing on hand so I cut it to size and ironed it to my black and white fabric, which was just a simple cotton. I thought it would give it some reinforcement and help the finished cover keep it's shape.

Iron and hem the ends of both rectangles.

Place both rectangles, right side facing right side and stitch along the entire length, on just one side. Open and iron flat, as above.

These next few steps are completely optional, but I wanted to add color and texture, so I decided to add ruffles.

Cut ribbon to twice the length of your rectangles.

Use a gathering foot and stitch along the length of the entire ribbon. DO NOT back-stitch at the start or end, or you will not be able to gather. Remove the ribbon and holding one thread at the bottom, gently start pulling the ribbon away from you, pushing it back onto itself. It should start to gather up and you can push the gathering up and play with it to roughly even it out along the length of the ribbon.

Sew in place, down the center of your top fabric strip.

Repeat with second ribbon, if using. Also, in case you are curious, this is what a gathering foot looks like.

If you do not own one and have no interest in buying one (mine came with my machine) you could also use your longest stitch length and lower the tension of your thread (check your owner's manual) to do a gathering stitch.

Once again, fold your (now attached) two rectangles so that right side faces right side again, sew along the entire length, thus creating a long tube. The ruffles are on the inside.

Turn right side out. I used the eraser end of a pencil to help gently ease it through the entire length.

Slip onto your camera strap, re-attach strap to camera and look way cuter than you did before!

52 Week Project - Week 31

2011-09-24T10:35:00.000-07:00

*Just as a reminder, this is a personal project I am undertaking this year, in order to shoot more and share more. Each week of 2011 will have a corresponding favorite photograph.

My baby girl. She is a tough cookie. From very early on she would take the knocks and the bumps and the falls that would send other kids her age wailing for mommy, dust herself off and keep going. With two older siblings, she has always been convinced that she can, and should, do anything that they able to do too.

We moved about six weeks ago and she now has lots of new friends her age to play with, when her brother and sister go to school. She is surrounded by little boys and she plays as hard as they do; she can be a pirate and swing her sword and do everything that little boys do. She is not intimidated, or reticent in the slightest, she is just a little go-getter.

Yet, she still loves to be told how pretty she is. She loves to put on a lovely dress and twirl and dance. She comes to life in a different way and I love it! She is growing up so fast and changing by the day, becoming more confident and more beautiful. She is truly amazing.

52 Week Project - Week 30

2011-09-22T10:41:00.000-07:00

My kids LOVE their cousins. Of course they love their friends too, but it really is different with the bonds and familiarity of family. Add to that the fact that life is so busy and we do not get to see them nearly as often as we would like, which brings in an almost-novelty-effect.

They are as thick as thieves, especially the two older girls who are also both little daredevils and risk-takers. The teenage years will be an interesting time for both our households, I sense.

The picture above was taken after some serious make-up experimentation (as only a five and six year old can do) necessitated some hardcore cleaning, they most certainly could not leave the house looking like this.They were happy little campers though!

God made us cousins because he knew our moms couldn't handle us as sisters! - Anonymous.

This might be the more fitting quote.

52 Week Project - Week 29

2011-09-21T12:10:00.000-07:00

*Just as a reminder, this is a personal project I am undertaking this year, in order to shoot more and share more. Each week of 2011 will have a corresponding favorite photograph.

I have a lot of catching up to do in terms of posting from my 52 week project. I cannot believe that we are already in week 37, this year is speeding by! So without wasting any more time, here is the picture from week 29.

This was her first day of school. Officially a kindergartener! She was excited and ready to go. She felt confident and comfortable. She had spent the past two years watching her older brother at this school, in the very same class, with the very same teacher. As a K/1 class, she was even familiar with half of her classmates.

For me it was, and is, so bitter sweet; my baby girl growing up and leaving home (well not quite yet, but almost). I love the quote I found, which describes raising children from my perspective, so perfectly. We have to let go, to let them grow up and become the people they are, in their own right. Yet at the same time we keep holding on, keep loving, keep being there for them and encouraging them to their full potential. What an honor and a challenge.

Love that little girl and so incredibly proud of her!

Wedding - Ben and Hannah's Sneak Peek {Bay Area Wedding Photographer}

2011-09-13T23:04:00.000-07:00

Theirs is no ordinary love story...it is the stuff that movies are made of. She was born in England, to American parents; he is Scottish, but grew up in Holland. They did not meet in any of those countries however, they met in Africa!

She was a volunteer nurse and he was a teacher, on the Africa Mercy Ship. Their first kiss was on Deck 7 (the outdoor deck) very late one night, and their first date was at a Thai restaurant in Benin. He proposed last year in San Francisco at the Top of the Mark, we took engagement photos a few days later...then he had to leave.

Wedding preparations went ahead, in faith. It must have seemed like an eternity, and thank goodness for modern technology and the many hours of phone calls. The weeks leading up to the wedding they were still anxiously awaiting his INS interview and for him to be granted his fiance visa.

But this was a love that was meant to be, and in the end it all came together for a glorious occasion; a beautiful bride, a day full of joy and laughter and tears, as speeches touched our hearts. They gave the glory to God as they were surrounded by friends and family from near...and very far. All the waiting was finally over.

They are now Mr. and Mrs. Calvert! Thank you for letting me document your special day...enjoy your sneak peek of a few highlights.

Fellow photographer, David Nelson, took photos of the guys as they got ready.

Excuses, excuses...

2011-09-08T15:44:00.000-07:00

To those of you who have been checking in...and finding nothing new, I am so sorry! The last month or so has been crazy busy as we prepared for a move, shot a wedding, moved...the kids started a new school, the hubby is now back in school, and we are still trying to unpack.

Keep checking back, I have an awesome sneak peek from the wedding to share (any day now), as well as many weeks of photos from my 52-week project.

New In!

2011-08-04T14:11:00.000-07:00

I know it has been slow on here lately. We are gearing up for a move next week and I have been working on

designing my new business cards.

They arrived today... :)

I chose a linen texture and opted for a folded card.

They are a deep brown, like dark chocolate. I'm not very active on Twitter, but if you want to follow me my name is #Chocolate_Helps!!!! If you know me, you know I LOVE chocolate.

Two designs, one for weddings and one for family portraiture. I will probably have many more printed, with different photographs, now that I have my basic design finished.

OK...back to the packing!

52 Week Project - Week 28

2011-07-28T22:10:00.000-07:00

*Just as a reminder, this is a personal project I am undertaking this year, in order to shoot more and share more. Each week of 2011 will have a corresponding favorite photograph.

I am almost caught up and I am in the photograph for week 28!

That's me and my man! The other week we had an unexpected free evening and a friend offered to watch the kiddos so we could go out for a date. Let me explain, that this is not something that happens all the time. Our last date was in January, for our anniversary!

It was so fun to get (a little) dressed up and be out, just the two of us. Our original plan had been to check out an "Off the Grid" food truck party, which sounded fun; a mobile food adventure with live music. However, we were there for all of five minutes before we decided we were in need of a new plan. We ended up having the most delicious dinner at Sabor of Spain, in San Rafael. I LOVE, LOVE, LOVE Spanish food, I think it takes me back to my childhood.We lived in Spain for a number of years, which is why I have a Spanish name, in case you ever wondered.

I love my wonderful family, but I love the times that it is just the two of us. I really enjoy my husband's company, he makes me smile, he looks adoringly at me and tells me that I take his breath away, he holds my hand or strokes my leg...even after all our years together. Sigh!

Anyway, he is endlessly patient with me and let me drag him to a local park after our meal, to take photographs - what a man. You should have seen me, setting up my camera, checking the exposure and focus and everything was just right, then pressing the shutter and running to be in the shot and trying to look relaxed (and not out of breath). I am sure some of the other people in the park thought we were nuts. I don't care, I love that I have these. I am way more comfortable behind the camera, but it is so important to be on the other side too. I am a part of this life I love to capture.

And OK, so we are hardly a 'boy' and a 'girl' anymore, but when we are together sometimes it can still feel that way.

I like him a lot.

I'm pretty sure he likes me too.

Yep. Told you so!

52 Week Project - Week 27

2011-07-24T23:03:00.000-07:00

*Just as a reminder, this is a personal project I am undertaking this year, in order to shoot more and share more. Each week of 2011 will have a corresponding favorite photograph.

Another beach photograph. What can I say? We live in California and have nice summers and our kids love the beach, it is one of their favorite places. No apologies here.

I love the relationship that my husband has with each of his children, they know that they are loved and, oh so special. to him. This last year has been a time of transition for our son, and his relationship and need for his daddy has grown by leaps and bounds. I am so grateful for the example James sets, for the time he spends, for the love he gives.

These moments are so precious and I am so glad to have captured just a snippet of their relationship together; my man and my boy!

52 Week Project - Week 26

2011-07-23T22:39:00.000-07:00

*Just as a reminder, this is a personal project I am undertaking this year, in order to shoot more and share more. Each week of 2011 will have a corresponding favorite photograph.

I am glad for this project I have undertaken. It is all too easy to only show the very best, the perfect. But the truth is that our life is not always portrait worthy, it is real life that we are living.

There are so many things about this photograph that are far from perfect, but I love it! Lighting conditions were less than ideal, there is a horizon line going through my little girl's head...I could go on...but it captures her emotion, her total joy and it makes my heart want to burst.

These are the moments I want to remember. The happy places; her brother playing in the background with a friend's dog, her shadow as she leaps across the sand, the huge smile on her face as she runs from the incoming waves, which have slowed to barely a trickle as they reach the shore.

Snapshots are not to be sniffed at. They are what memories are made of, they are what we will treasure in the years to come.

(As you can see from a previous post, I am behind in posting, although I am keeping up in taking the photographs. This photograph was taken July 2nd, 2011, week 26, officially halfway through this project for 2011.)

The Bearkeys Sneak Peek

2011-07-13T21:43:00.000-07:00

Meet the Bjerkes, otherwise known as The Bearkeys. What a sweet, fun couple, so young and full of love and hope. They are both talented musicians and you can read a little more about them and their journey here.

Of course, to our kids, she will most likely always be "Jenny Weaver", not just "Jenny"! She was their favorite babysitter, until she got married and moved to Davis. I promise I'm not bitter, but we do miss her still. Mark is a great guy and I was so glad to get to spend a little more time with them, as a couple, a week or so ago when we took photos.

There were so many great shots, but here is just a sneak peek with a few of my favorites.

52 Week Project - Week 25

2011-07-08T23:19:00.000-07:00

As I mentioned, our Summer has been busy. Week 25 was a couple of weeks back but here it is. When I started on this project for this year, I did not set any rules, it was about taking and sharing more photographs. I have even used my point and shoot on days when I needed a lighter load. This photograph is from one of those days. We went to Six Flags with friends and it was a point and shoot day, but this is the photograph from that week which speaks to me the most.

When you see a child enjoying themselves as much as this, how can you help but smile?

Behind

2011-07-05T13:50:00.000-07:00

I know I am behind on posting on here...thank you for checking, it's just that real life with kiddos will always take priority over virtual life. Fret not - I am still shooting, just editing and posting has been taking a back seat as summer is in full swing. Don't give up on me, more photos will (hopefully) be posted shortly. Thanks!

Mmmm

2011-06-24T18:11:00.000-07:00

If you know me, you know that I have a sweet tooth and I love to bake. Last week I found a link to this recipe for Fudge Revel Bars and decided they would be the perfect treat to make for Father's Day. I thought I would share it with you here as I think they turned out really well. Just be warned, this makes a whole cookie sheet's worth.

Fudge Revel Bars
1 cup butter
2 eggs
2 cups brown sugar
1 tsp salt
1 tsp baking soda
2 1/2 cups flour
2 tsp vanilla
3 cups oats

Fudgey Layer
1 (14oz) can sweetened condensed milk
1 pckg chocolate chips
1 tbsp butter
1/2 tsp salt

Cream together the butter, brown sugar and eggs. Add the vanilla, salt, baking soda and flour and mix well. Add the oats and mix well. Press 2/3 of the mixture into a pre-greased cookie sheet.

(My little tip here is to spread it as well as you can, then cut a piece of wax paper lay it on top of the mixture and use your hands to apply a smoothing pressure and continue pressing down the mixture until it fills the pan and reaches all the edges. When you are done, you can carefully lift the wax paper, your hands are not greasy and the mixture should not stick to the wax paper).

To prepare the fudge layer, put the all of the fudge ingredients into a microwave safe bowl, microwave for one minute, then stir. Keep cooking at 30 second increments, stirring, until the mixture has all melted together. Pour over the dough and spread over the complete surface. 'Sprinkle' the rest of the dough over the fudge (I used two spoons to scoop up the dough and place it somewhat randomly on top).

Bake at 350 degrees for 20 minutes.

Let them cool (for as long as you can stand...it might be hard) and enjoy with a glass of milk!

Happy Father's Day!

2011-06-19T20:44:00.000-07:00

How does one describe a Father? I know there are many examples all around us and, unfortunately, some of those are far from inspiring. Yet it is such a vitally important role. I see my children and the love they have for their Daddy. He loves them unconditionally, he wants the very best for them, he has sacrificed for them and prayed for them, he encourages them and teaches them, he is present, he is there for them!

Nobody is perfect and I am sure as we reflect on our own childhood, where parents who loved us just as much, still made mistakes, we sometimes wonder what our children will think of the job that we do. When they are parents themselves, then they will of course understand. We love our children, we do what we honestly feel is best and we trust God to take care of the rest.

There are times of exhaustion but also of pride and pure joy. What is better than to see their sweet smiling faces? Sure there are challenges but the rewards far, far outweigh any hardships. To all the fathers out there, do not undervalue the importance of your role in your child's life.To my own father, thank you for the years of friendship.

To my wonderful husband and partner in this parenting journey, thank you for all that you do and all that you are, you continually give above and beyond what most would consider more-than-reasonable and we are eternally grateful. I love you, your children love you, you are amazing!

Happy Father's Day.

52 Week Project - Week 24 {Marin Child Portrait Photographer}

2011-06-18T20:42:00.000-07:00

Aaaah summer is in full swing for us. School has been out for three weeks and we have been hiking and playing at parks and going to the beach and meeting with friends. Life is more relaxed and much less structured.

Any time there is water to counteract heat it is a huge bonus, the kids could not be happier. We spent time this week visiting friends and playing in the San Anselmo creek, which my friend's mom's house backs onto. Water, sunshine, shade, friends, snacks...they really make for the best of times.

How is your summer shaping up?

52 Week Project - Week 23

2011-06-11T22:15:00.000-07:00

All children should get to experience carefree pleasures that bring simple joy. Blowing dandelions is one of those experiences, that is almost magical. I think I get almost as excited as them, in the same way as blowing bubbles, or the candles on a birthday cake...why is that?

I know that to some they are just an ugly weed, annoying and uncontrollable, but there is something mysterious and alluring about them. The perfect little yellow flower, so bright and happy, which changes into a ball of fluff, strong, yet delicate and irresistible. There is excitement and anticipation as breath is drawn, and then the releasing, of breath and seeds, floating gently away, like parachutes they gently fall, to start a new life. Quite amazing!

Sometimes the simplest things are the most beautiful.

52 Week Project - Week 22

2011-06-05T15:40:00.000-07:00

Their first kiss as Mr. and Mrs. (Sigh) I love weddings. I always have and always will. Such a day of excitement and the start of a new life as a married couple. I still remember my own wedding day so clearly and the emotions surrounding it, yet somehow now I am a mother, with three small children and fourteen and a half years behind me, as a wife. It still blows my mind and I feel very blessed and happy.

I snapped this one with a five year old on my lap, not the easiest task, I can assure you. Do not be horrified, I was just a guest not an official photographer this time. Congratulations Mr. and Mrs. Botts and many blessings to the two of you for your life ahead.

52 Week Project - Week 21

2011-05-30T21:02:00.000-07:00

Well once again I am posting later than I would like. The good news is, that I am keeping up with this project and shooting more as a result. A bit of discipline never hurt anyone. Pretty soon we will be halfway through the year, which is ridiculously crazy to think about.

School is out and I now have three children at home again, so there will be many trips to the park, and if the weather ever gets it's act together again and behaves like summer, trips to the beach! I am waiting anxiously.

52 Week Project - Week 20 {Bay Area Child Portrait Photographer}

2011-05-22T23:00:00.000-07:00

Light is not just light. There is harsh light and there is beautiful light, and timing is everything. The first and last hour of sunlight, when the sun is low in the sky, bathing everything in a golden glow...well it can be quite magical. Turn your subject around to back light them and the end result is gorgeous, hazy light wrapping around them.

My sweet mischievous girl gave me a few minutes of her time, which with this light was all I needed, then she was done. I love the results, I love that these photographs capture so much of her personality, the person she is, right now, so fun and full of joy, yet obstinate and stubborn, she is three!

And just because my girl and the light both take my breath away, I have to post a few extras.

52 Week Project - Week 19

2011-05-14T21:46:00.000-07:00

I often wonder why children fight sleep, so much. When they are well rested, they (and I must admit, I) are much more pleasant to be around. Plus during those moments of sweet slumber, they look so sweet and angelic that I can forgive all wrongs!

(Excuse the grain, this was a pretty dim room and I had to crank up the ISO.)

52 Week Project - Week 18

2011-05-08T21:26:00.000-07:00

I have been so incredibly fortunate to have had the friends I have had in my life. Some of my best friends are flung far and wide across this earth and some are near at hand. In the journey of parenthood I am so grateful for the friends that are on this road with us and that our children are friends with each other...best friends!

My son's two closest friends, who he has grown up with, are both little girls and he could not love them more. I know that they are entering the years when they will, undoubtedly, seek friends of the same sex with the same interests, but I trust that these early foundational years will keep them close. That these will be friends that he will always be able to turn to in times of need, or doubt. The shared memories of growing up together, the deep bonds of trust and love of each others' families. I hope these will always stand strong in his mind, that he will have confidence, knowing he is loved.

How empty our life would be without friends to share it with!

52 Week Project - Week 17

2011-04-29T19:03:00.000-07:00

My sweet three year old. She loves her ballet classes and yet this last week she seemed quite detached. Before we had even left the house she was saying that she did not want to dance, she just wanted to watch. Well I told her that she needed to be ready, in case she changed her mind. When we arrived, we found that instead of class being in the main room on the stage, a conference was going on and her class had been moved to a smaller room. This was a first for her and she seemed to become even more uncomfortable.

She was not her usual confident self, she seemed shyer and more reserved and even at one point shed a few tears. It broke my heart a little to see this other side of her, but she came through it.

How often do we take the easy road, the wide road traveled by so many before us? It is the safe route, for sure, but are we really living to our full potential within those confines? Creativity often involves trying something different, or new, and there might be a risk involved.

A tiny spark is all that is needed to start the fire, it does not start as a raging furnace. Maybe, in order for our wildest dreams to become reality we just need to take that first tiny step.

52 Week Project - Week 16

2011-04-24T23:33:00.000-07:00

Just a very simple one from last week. My children constantly remind me that I over-complicate things, even life. There are chores and responsibilities and to-do lists and the reality is that they are never ending. There are always things to worry about. Where are my priorities? Where is the joy?

Children want to have fun! They know how to have fun, they can turn the park that they have been to one thousand times into a fun adventure. Life is simple and sweet (as long as mom is not nagging them to tidy their toys or clothes again!)

I am so glad they have each other, I am so glad that they have this time to be children, to enjoy the world around them, without having to constantly rely on TV or electronic equipment to keep them entertained. I want to protect this short window of time for them, to allow them to not be overly-scheduled, to let them play and be...kids.

Yes there is training and preparing for the life ahead of them, and responsibilities to learn. They live in a different age than we grew up in, with a whole new world of pressures we never knew, but this still should be a time of freedom and fun.

52 Week Project - Week 15 {Bay Area Child Portrait Photographer}

2011-04-16T19:12:00.000-07:00

I love the relationship my kids have with each other. They truly enjoy each other and have fun together. The girls really are each others best friend and the time they have spent together since their brother started school has only served to strengthen their bond.

Yesterday I made a new dress for Bryttain - a pillowcase dress. I have been looking for something simple and classic, for the longest time and it just has not materialized, so I decided I would just have to make it. I ran to a local thrift store and found one pillowcase that would work, ran to Michaels for some ribbon to make the ties and an hour later she had a cute dress, perfect for a little shoot. She was pretty excited and all of a sudden all three of them were excited. We were losing light rapidly but they were insistent! Arran (kind of) helped me drag my bench out into the field and I just started shooting.

I love to catch them interacting and this fun stage of their relationship. I know that in the years ahead they may not always be this close, but I will have proof that they were and I know in my heart that they will always have an undeniable bond, that I hope will come full circle.

Love the natural outtakes too.

Of course we have to have some fun too, we cannot be all serious when it comes to photographs, otherwise how many do you think I would really get? Love, love, love these little people!

52 Week Project - Week 14

2011-04-12T10:34:00.000-07:00

We, or maybe I should own it and say "I", can be my own worst critic. We so easily see our flaws, the places where we are far from perfect. We see ourselves as nobody else can, because we are the only ones to know the internal dialogues, the struggles that we hide from the rest of the world.

I am on a journey. I want to be able to see myself as I was truly created to be. I want to humbly be able to recognize my areas of strength, my talents, the gifts that I have been given, the things that make me unique and different from everybody else...from every other photographer out there.

When my children look at me they see my heart! They know that I love them, and will fight for them to the end. They see my loyalty and that I truly want the best for them. They see that I am beautiful and fun and creative. They see me at my worst and my best, the highs and the lows...and they love me. Their little eyes see ME! They are a gift to me and teach me new things each day, I want to be better for them and for that to impact everyone that I come in contact with.

This past weekend I 'attended' a live, online photography class. If you are a photographer, or aspiring photographer, I encourage you to check out Creative Live, it is such an amazing resource. They provide free classes, as long as the timing works with your schedule and you can attend the live event. If that does not work, then you can buy the class after the fact, to watch at your convenience. There are many workshops out there, but they cost a small fortune; through Creative Live you can have access to amazing teachers for a fraction of the cost.

This weekend's course encouraged more searching of myself and challenged me to be prepared to take risks, to try...and do things 'wrong', because in that process I might find the 'right' way to do something. To try to let go of my perfectionism, because all that does is encourage me to procrastinate. None of us will ever be perfect - yet how many of us strive for that, or to appear to be that? To think about what makes me different and use that to my advantage.

Take a moment to step back and see yourself as someone who loves you sees you...you might be pleasantly surprised!

Howards' Sneak Peek {Bay Area Newborn Photographer}

2011-04-07T22:29:00.000-07:00

Do not be fooled by the photo above...this sweet thing did not sleep a wink during her little shoot! I guess I was just far too interesting.

Ah sweet newborns. A brand new, tiny person, with their whole life ahead of them. Sometimes it is hard to believe that we all started out that way. Little Miss 'S' has such delicate features with the most perfect girly nose. She was incredibly alert and gave me great eye contact and even some faint smiles. What a treasure.

Congratulations again to the Howard family, another beautiful little girl to bring joy and laughter to your household. Enjoy every moment (in spite of the sleepless nights) these are the best days of our lives!

52 Week Project - Week 13

2011-04-04T23:57:00.000-07:00

A little late posting this one; the recovery from international travel with children, was harder than anticipated. I blame it on a certain three year old and her body clock, whose schedule dictated how we got to recover from the jetlag.

52 Week Project - Week 12

2011-03-26T16:05:00.000-07:00

We are still in England, and in honour (yes with the English spelling) of Lou, it had to be an Audrey Hepburn quote which I felt suited them perfectly.

We stayed a few days last week with my brother Wesley and his lovely girlfriend Lou, Wesley of course was very excited to get to have photographs taken. He was not in the least bit worried about what neighbours might think, or sitting on the ground. He was perfectly relaxed and enjoyed the experience thoroughly! Believe that if you will! What is it about guys?

Just because I can...here are a few extra.

52 Week Project - Week 11

2011-03-18T15:14:00.000-07:00

We are currently in the UK for a family vacation. Coming 'home' does not always feel like a vacation, it can be hard work, with family to visit and much driving to be done. But we started in London and pretended to be tourists, showing my children some of the sights. I have been in awe of the buildings, the attention to detail and just how beautiful they are. I do not normally think buildings are beautiful but I have seen with fresh eyes.

My picture for week 11 is the dome of St. Paul's Cathedral, where Prince Charles and Lady Diana were married. It is 'a symbol of the hope, resilience and strength of the city and nation it serves. Above all, St Paul’s Cathedral is a lasting monument to the glory of God.'

And just because I have been busy with my camera, a few more:

52 Week Project - Week 10

2011-03-14T15:41:00.000-07:00

Thrilled to finally be able to blow bubbles on a consistent basis.

52 week project

2011-03-11T08:20:00.000-08:00

There will unfortunately be a delay posting the next few weeks' photos. We are currently in England and I brought my laptop so that I could still download and edit photographs, but last night, part of a cup of tea spilled on my laptop and today it does not seem to be working. I am sad and frustrated and praying for a miracle!

52 Week Project - Week 9

2011-03-04T18:24:00.000-08:00

My little girl turned five this week. It is so bittersweet to watch our children grow. More often than not I wish I could stop time and keep them as these sweet children, yet with each new accomplishment I burst with pride at who they are becoming. I cannot stop time, no-one can, and this is one of the many reasons I love photography. All the little details that I could not possibly remember, probably even by next week, can at least be captured and looked back on again and again.

Before I had children I did not fully understand how precious each and every moment was. Our life, our time is a gift, not to be squandered. That minute, hour, day, week that has passed, we will never have it back again, it is gone forever. Let's make it all count.

52 Week Project - Week 8

2011-02-26T17:01:00.000-08:00

A four year old does not worry about how she looks, comparing herself to her friends, wondering if she is tall enough, or thin enough. A four year old enjoys life. She dances because it makes her feel pretty and it is fun. She wears the most enchanting dress, just to play at home. She knows she is beautiful and nobody has told her otherwise.

She is stunning and I pray that she will always know that. That the pressures and cares of this world will not cause her to conform. That we will be able to protect and nurture her self-esteem for as long as possible. That we could build a firm foundation before outside influences can infiltrate with lies that destroy joy, as weeds choking the most delicate of flowers.

If only we could all find that little girl inside of us, unhindered and uninhibited. Then we too could find true beauty!

52 Week Project - Week 7

2011-02-18T22:22:00.000-08:00

Our weather has been a little crazy. We have had glorious sun-filled, warm days (far too early I know) and more recently the gray...the rain. I groan a little inwardly when I awake to the pitter patter on my windowpane. The days just seem harder and duller. I know we need the rain, but I miss the sunshine! It lifts my spirits, it brings forth life. All around I see the beautiful signs that comfortingly remind me, season follows season, that spring soon WILL be here.

52 Week Project - Week 6

2011-02-11T20:59:00.000-08:00

52 Week Project - Week 5

2011-02-05T13:26:00.000-08:00

It is such a strange thought to me, that in just a few short months she will be the only one at home with me all of the time. My sweet girl has changed so much since turning three in December and one aspect that I have really noticed, is her new desire for independent play. Sure she loves to play with her older brother and sister, but she is also loving her own little world of her imagination.

I love the vivid imagination that each of my children has, their ability to play and entertain themselves without the constant need for television or computer games. Neither of those is banned from our house, but they are used in moderation with limits. I would so much rather they just play and have fun and just get to be kids. This time in their lives is so short lived, so important, so foundational and we can never gain it back again.

This playing is their work, it is serious business...just look at the concentration on her face and her little tongue. Love, love, love this little girl and the person she is becoming.

52 Week Project - Week 4

2011-01-29T22:32:00.000-08:00

Last week James and I celebrated our 14th wedding anniversary. It is hard to remember the details of life before 'us'. That was such a long time ago, another life. Yet at the same time it has been the blink of an eye and here we are, three children later; a family.

There is no way I could imagine being at this place in life with anybody else; the thought of losing him, for any reason, would be beyond devastating. No other man could possibly love me as he does, adore me and put up with me so patiently. He makes me laugh, he is not afraid to show his emotions, he is intelligent and creative and I know that I can trust him. He is my partner in this life, the most wonderful husband and sweetest father.

We were meant to be. Our love is true. He truly is a gift from God, to me.

52 Week Project - Week 3

2011-01-21T19:57:00.000-08:00

I continue to be amazed by how much my mood improves with the appearance of the sun. It has been a wonderful week, with more opportunities to spend time outdoors. One of the days as I was looking for inspiration, I glanced in the field behind our house and it literally sparkled. It was actually mid afternoon, not early morning, as you might expect, yet tiny water droplets were still clinging to the blades of grass and reflecting the sunlight. How often we miss these simple mysteries, busy with our everyday lives. That day I stopped and drank it in and smiled...before running inside to grab my camera.

I love how this project forces me to look around, with a new perspective. We are surrounded by so much simple beauty and it is the most amazing gift that we should not take for granted. I hope that I can continue to slow down life and really see all that is around me. I encourage you to do the same.

52 Week Project - Week 2

2011-01-14T23:44:00.000-08:00

This beautiful child does nothing by halves. She feels things so deeply, whatever it be from frustration or anger to joy, humor or excitement, it is without restraint. It is a trait she most certainly inherited from her Father, who is a man of passion.

The negative emotions can be hard to deal with, of course, but when she laughs it is hard not to laugh with her. There is something so real and so raw about laughter that is refreshing and contagious. Her days are most certainly not wasted as she brings joy to our household. What a gift!

Help on the journey.

2011-01-08T15:17:00.000-08:00

In my photography journey, the internet has been an invaluable tool for learning and inspiration; without it my photography would not be where it is today. I joined a photography forum and there are numerous blogs I frequent as well as Google, when I need to find a specific tutorial or help with editing (which these days, is a huge part of photography).

I already mentioned The Creative Mama Blog as they are doing a 52 week photography challenge, with bi-weekly themes and another one I am following along with and who are providing weekly themes, is MCP Actions. Their theme this week was 'Around the House' and their week runs Saturday-Friday.

Well we got to Friday afternoon (this first week was a shorter week) and I suddenly realized that I had yet to take and submit my photograph. I was kind of lost for what to shoot, it was late in the afternoon and a dreary day, so lighting was horrible and my house (not unusual) was a mess. I decided to reach for my macro lens, which enables me to take great close-up detail shots (thereby minimizing seeing surrounding mess ;P ). I shot a couple of different things; a plate of feathers I had bought at Michaels, details of carving in my new wood bench, before I walked into the bedroom and saw my open jewelry case with necklaces hanging innocently enough.

Anyway, just thought I would share the photo I chose for this theme. Next week's theme is 'Illustrate a Song', I will have to get my thinking cap on for that!

52 Week Project - Week 1

2011-01-07T15:24:00.000-08:00

So every Christmas, my lovely sister spends her hard earned cash and flies over from freezing England to visit us, in...very cold California. It really is not much better here at this time of year, yes we, unfortunately, have winters too. She could go somewhere hot, but instead she chooses to spend time with family. She spoils her nephew and nieces, she lets my husband and I get a night away without the kids, she hangs out with us and puts up with us. It is fun for me to have somebody to shop with, it is fun for the kids to have someone else paying them close attention and showing them love, in the way only family does.

She is kind and generous. She is beautiful, inside and, obviously, out. She is loyal, she has good taste. She is honest and she cares about others. She has so much to give and would make someone an amazing wife, although she says she has finally reached the place where she can be happy being single. She makes me laugh. She listens to me, like only a sister can...she jabs at me, like only a sister can! I cannot say enough good things about her and miss her already.

Of course with as willing a model as she was, although that is my official selection for the 52 week project, I have to share a few more.

This one was a close contender for the 1/52 place.

Don't forget to check back by next Friday for the second week of this project and if you decide to do something similar leave me a comment so I can follow along with you too.

One down, fifty one to go!

Happy New Year!

2011-01-01T23:52:00.000-08:00

The first day of a new year. A clean, fresh slate. It feels right, and I am approaching this year with the anticipation of good things to come.

I want to have some challenge for the year ahead and had contemplated posting a photo a day, but I also want this to be the year that I officially start my business! (Yes here it is in writing! That means it is official, right?!) that takes time and extra work to make that happen and then, I hope, clients. So in view of all that, I decided that maybe a photo a week would be less demanding.

I trust I will post more often than that, but that will be the very least.

I have not decided if I will have a theme, or leave it wide open, but I am open to suggestions if you have any (just leave me a comment).

Over on The Creative Mama Blog, they are running a photography challenge where every two weeks they will issue a new challenge. The current theme is Growth and Change so that is my theme for this first week.

The day my son was born, a mother was born...before that she did not exist. I was forever changed. I look at him now, so big, and think back to the moment he made us a family. He was so tiny, so helpless - he fit in that onesie! How is that even possible? He and his sisters make me a better person, allow me to continue to grow and learn with them. I love them with all my heart.

Want to join me in this challenge?

What are YOUR goals for this next year? Let us encourage each other to pursue our dreams and make them reality!

Time Flies {Bay Area Child Portrait Photographer}

2010-11-17T16:42:00.000-08:00

It amazes me how fast my children are growing up. I seriously can remember bringing this boy home from the hospital as though it were yesterday, how he completely changed my life forever. I look at him now and he is a big boy! He seems so grown up and mature and I, unfairly, expect so much from him, forgetting how young he really is. How can he be so big and little at the same time? It is very confusing.

He had my undivided attention for two whole years and we went everywhere together. Then we added some sisters into the mix and now he is in school and our times together are limited, as well as shared. It was definitely time for a little one on one photo session, with no little girls in the picture. Daddy likes his caps, so I recently bought one for my boy too and it was just the incentive he needed.

I love this wonderful little boy who likes to grow his hair long each year, whose teeth are falling out and growing in and look a little goofy. He has such a sweet heart; everybody in the whole world is his best friend he tells us, there is no favoritism here. I love that he is sensitive and that he can still be silly and have fun, like every child should.

Busch sneak peek

2010-09-09T22:15:00.000-07:00

As a mom and a photographer, I find, probably like many of you, that I do not end up in many of our photographs. I love family photographs, a little snippet of time showing a family together through the years. I think it is so important. I think everybody should do it on a regular basis.

Our children grow up so quickly and as they look back at photographs, in the future, I want them to see us as a family as well as all the snapshots of them and their daddy :)

There are always valid reasons, and many excuses, for putting off taking family photographs; an impossible schedule, wondering what to wear, the last few pounds you want to lose, the hair that needs to be colored, bumps or scrapes that you do not want to show...the truth is none of us is perfect, but we do not need to be. It is about capturing the love within a family, precious moments that can be looked back on and treasured forever.

As in so many areas of life there is a cost, we need to make time and effort so that we do not live with the regret of wishing we had gotten around to taking those photographs, or whatever else it is that you need to do.

I had the pleasure of spending a couple of hours on Saturday evening with some wonderful friends and capturing their little family, (even Grandma came along for the ride). Especially with little children it is not all about the posed shots where everybody looks at the camera and smiles, but about having fun together and hanging out and capturing moments as they happen. I love it!

I hope you enjoy your sneak peek guys, back to editing the rest of them :)

This little munchkin is named after her Grandma!

Yes, I really did have them climb a tree!

The magic hour...

2010-09-03T23:08:00.000-07:00

"Just living is not enough" said the butterfly fairy, "one must have sunshine, freedom and a little flower."
Hans Christian Andersen

Sisters, sisters, never were there such devoted sisters!

2010-08-04T23:26:00.000-07:00

I love watching the relationships of my children. They each genuinely love and adore each other, in spite of the bickering and fights that regularly erupt. They truly are best friends and it warms my heart and blesses me.

Arran is already back in school and we miss him terribly, but it does mean that the two girls get to spend more time working on their bond. Mommies and babies, dressing up, cooking in their little kitchen, these girlie activities are regular occurrences in our household (although truth be told, Arran would happily join in with any of those games).

Here are my little princesses (with a little vintage-like processing), cooperating and letting me take a picture of them together, I hope they will be this close for the rest of their lives.

Ben and Hannah Sneak Peek

2010-07-26T22:45:00.000-07:00

This story started MANY years ago...as a young girl, Hannah and her family toured Anastasis one of the Mercy Ships. Mercy Ships, in case you don't know, are charity hospital ships, providing health care to the poor in port areas of the world. She decided back then, at such a young age that she wanted to be a nurse and one day help on one of those ships.

Fast forward to a few years back and Hannah graduated as a nurse and got a job in San Francisco. Last year though, she did it! She left her job in San Francisco and flew to Africa where she worked for six months on today's Mercy Ship, Africa Mercy. It is such an amazing ministry, providing hope and help to those who would otherwise go untreated; women who have been ostracized from their communities because of problems in child birth leaving them smelling constantly of urine, children with cancer and any number of other conditions they were faced with.

Whilst she was on the ship, she met Ben, a young Scotsman, whose family live in Holland. On Saturday, after a six week visit, he once again boarded a plane, to return to Africa, but four days before that he got down on one knee and popped THE question. She said "Yes!" and there is a ring on her finger to prove it.

With the last minute engagement, photographs almost did not happen, there were people to tell, celebrations to be shared, but we slipped away for half an hour and I am so glad we did. I know in the months ahead that they have to be apart, they will cherish these.

Congratulations to you both, we are all so excited for you and cannot wait to see how your story unfolds. Enjoy your sneak peek!

Baby H

2010-07-07T23:34:00.000-07:00

Can you believe how good this Mama looked, just ten days after giving birth? Quite ridiculous really.

We were up at Ralston White for a women's retreat and it was the perfect time and location to take some newborn photos, before baby H started to lose his newborn curliness. The best time to take newborn shots is before the baby is two weeks old.

He has already changed so much, but what precious memories. Here is a little sneak peek for a very patient Mama.

What a sweet baby boy. It does not get much better than this. Enjoy every precious moment...they grow up too fast.

Ah - Young Love

2010-07-05T23:20:00.000-07:00

It is hard to believe that this time last year I was back in England, without my husband or children (for the first time ever), for my brother's wedding. They were married on July 4th, 2009 so JUST got to celebrate one year of marriage! Woo Hoo!

They were out here for a visit a few weeks back and I got to take a few shots of them. So sweet.

Happy Anniversary to you both. Thank you so much for spending your precious vacation time with us...come back soon :)

Happy Father's Day

2010-06-20T09:01:00.000-07:00

It has been a long week in the Cannan household. Every year James takes a trip down to Mexico, with a team from our church, and they build a home for a needy family, it really is a worthwhile cause, but it means sacrifice too; our life is so different when he is gone. We love him and need him in so many different ways. He got last night, just in time for Father's Day.

He is such a wonderful daddy who adores his children and his wife. He is so giving and warm and genuine and fun. He knows how to be silly and make his children laugh and how to be sensitive and compassionate when they are hurting or struggling. He is such a wonderful example to us all.

Last year I started, what I have decided will now be a tradition, for as long as the kids will allow it to be anyway, and took a photograph of the three of them lying on a black background. (You can click here to see last year's photograph and how much they have changed). I think it will be fun to look back in years to come and see these, side by side. Of course it will probably make me cry too, but I hope they will be sweet tears of remembrance of the good times, of a house full of tiny feet and shrieks and giggles.

We make pretty darn cute kids together, even if I do say so myself! Happy Father's Day my love, you are the best Daddy in the whole world.

Wedding - Steve and Allie's Sneak Peek

2010-06-08T21:32:00.000-07:00

I love weddings, I always have and cannot possibly imagine that ever changing. They are such joyous occasions. Everybody makes extra effort to look nice, it is a happy time.

Just over a week ago was Steve and Allie Nelken's wedding, which I had the opportunity to second-shoot at, once again with David Nelson. It is a lot of work, but being part of a team to capture the day makes it a lot less stressful and more fun.

After a week of rain it was the most gorgeous day and I do believe fun was had by all.

Enjoy the little sneak peek.

New Life

2010-05-26T23:46:00.000-07:00

These three adorable munchkins greeted me this morning, excited and happy, aware that their mommy was about to have a little brother for them. Life was about to change. As they took off with grandma, a full day ahead of them, I headed indoors for photographs.

It was a beautiful home birth, that happened at the perfect time, without rushing. Mom and Dad were the greatest team and the result is about as precious as they come.

Just a very quick sneak peek. Alice you were an inspiration and did an amazing job. You were calm and strong and full of grace and I look forward to many baby snuggles in the days ahead.

Congratulations to you all, you are a truly beautiful family!

Pretty Britty

2010-05-06T23:14:00.000-07:00

My beautiful little girl, she takes my breath away. There are times that she is a complete challenge and I wonder how we will make it through the teenage years, but she also has a quiet sweetness about her.

I had taken photos with Asia the other day and I did not want Bryttain to feel left out, so this evening it was her turn. Of course, she was far more interested in picking grass than looking at me, but all it takes is one or two good ones to keep this Mama happy.

Wedding - Dan and Karen's Sneak Peek

2010-05-04T23:47:00.000-07:00

My sweet friend Karen was married on March 27th. It was a beautiful, fun, relaxed occasion. Her family are just wonderful and the day was filled with joy and laughter. I am beyond thrilled that Karen has found a man to share her life with.

It is so hard to choose just a few photographs for the sneak peek, but she has been waiting (maybe) patiently, so choose I must.

I love the 'getting ready' time; hanging out with the bride was my main reason for shooting this wedding.

This cool old truck belonged to Karen's great grandfather and is almost 100 years old. Her dad was so cute and came up with the whole story behind this; he is driving off with his daughter, mom is mad, groom is chasing after them. How fun is that? Certainly not your typical 'formal'!

Then as the sun was about to set, we headed out for a few last shots in the wild flowers.

May you have a blessed marriage, full of laughter and love, rich with friendships (both near and far). I am SO glad I was able to truly share your whole day with you. Love you my friend :)

Two and in control

2010-04-29T22:10:00.000-07:00

Some days are harder than others. Today my sweet two year old decided, in all her wisdom, that she was not going to take a nap. Her older siblings both took naps, but she is two and is testing all the boundaries! The fact of the matter is, you cannot force a person to sleep.

I was tired and full of cold, with a house that needs to be tidied and photos that need to be edited. I had not picked up my camera in days and the field behind us full of grass looked inviting. I know that one day I will miss my baby being two and mischievous and oh so controlling so we headed out to take some shots.

I love this little monkey, more than she will ever know.

Cousins

2010-04-21T23:14:00.000-07:00

I am busy editing wedding photographs, but last week we were visiting family in Texas and the fields were beautiful. We just do not have anything like it here. Here are my three munchkins with their sweet cousin Flynn, they truly adored her and now we are home miss her...and now back to work. Sneak peek will hopefully be up soon.

Freesia

2010-03-22T14:33:00.000-07:00

The sun is shining and it is a beautiful day. Spring is here, officially here!

Freesias were my mom's favorite flowers and I had taken some photographs back in February but not really played or posted anything.

So in celebration of spring:

Joy Young and Charlie Mead got Married :)

2010-03-18T14:05:00.000-07:00

I had the pleasure of photographing the radiant Joy Young as she and her bridesmaids prepared for her big day. She has now left California to start her new life in England with her new husband. I wonder how it is all going?

Thanks for letting me share and document your morning for you Joy, it was such a lovely, beautiful wedding and blessings for you and Charlie in your new life together.

(Disc will be in the mail before the weekend).

Self-Portrait part II

2010-02-01T15:58:00.000-08:00

So the second part of this assignment was to photograph yourself, as an object.

I chose a rosebud.

To me they are quintessentially British. They remind me of home, of my roots. I chose yellow, the color of the sun; life-giving, it brings joy and happiness. A yellow rose says "I care", it speaks of friendship and joy and gladness.

This is not a brand new bud, nor is it yet in full bloom, but it is full of potential, the journey has begun.

Self-Portrait

2010-01-31T20:36:00.000-08:00

I read a number of blogs, for various reasons. In some instances it is a way of keeping up with a friend's life, in others I look for inspiration. One of my recent sources for inspiration and now challenge is that of Me Rah Koh, and more specifically her SOAR scholarship blog. She has selected three women this year, to mentor in their photography journey and via her and their blogging of the experience, we can follow along too. I decided to challenge myself to join in with some of their exercises and as a result, there has been much soul searching for me this week.

The first exercise was in two parts, the first being to take a self-portrait with you in it. The second was to take a self-portrait with an object representing where you are right now.

I have had quite an emotional time as this exercise forced me to take a deeper look at my life; at my hopes and dreams. I was surprised by how near to the surface these emotions remained throughout the week. This has been such a busy month for our family and I think the lack of time to actually sit and be still and think and examine and pray through it all, meant that I had thoughts and ideas swirling through my mind which I could not gain control of or settle enough to understand.

Today I finally took some much needed time away, alone, to sit and write and try to solidify the swirling mess.

I love to take photos, I love the fact that there is an artistic process that is coupled with technical requirements. One moment can be captured in so many different ways. I love to share my art and yet I still live with fears of disappointment, judgment, rejection. Will I ever be good enough to take this further? Will others believe in my abilities? Will they enjoy my offerings? Will my desire to create, rob my children of time with their mother? Is this the right time?

Yes I am a complex creature, with many issues. I am a wife. a mother, a sister, a daughter a friend, taking care of others, taking care of all the 'stuff' that needs taking care of; the meals, the laundry, the mess, the emotions, the teaching and training. Somewhere in the midst of it all there is an artist, someone who was on the verge of drowning and has finally come up for air and is frantically gulping for breath, for her very life. It is not so much a battle, as a realization that choices have to be made.

So (at the risk of further rejection) I share with you my self-portrait. I would love to hear your thoughts or comments. What do you see, what do you think, how does it make you feel?

Check back soon for my self-portrait part two!

Jenny and Mark's Sneak Peek

2009-12-31T22:28:00.000-08:00

I first met Jenny, when I was a newlywed, over here for a visit to the United States to meet my husband's friends and family. She was this ridiculously cute little girl, who would come running up to me and fling her little arms around my knees, then gaze up at me with her big eyes and cheeky grin. She was always so full of love even back then.

Little did I know that years later I would be living here, that she would babysit for my children and that I would get to take photos on her wedding day! She is one of those people who is truly beautiful, inside and out. She has a love for others and a sincerity and a sweetness that make her an incredibly special person.

It is no surprise that Mark fell in love with her and could wait no longer to be her husband. I wish them all the happiness in the world, a lifetime of joy and love and fun times together. Best friends forever!

Jenny, I am so glad that I got to be a part of your special day, enjoy your sneak peek.

The very impressive first kiss as Mr. and Mrs.

'P' Family Sneak Peak

2009-12-04T23:13:00.000-08:00

The 'P' Family contacted me recently to take some family photographs; I hope you enjoy your sneak peak.

The children were all adorable, polite, well-behaved and very co-operative.

'Z' even came prepared with his own poses, it was a riot. He apparently has a friend who does modeling, so I think they had been chatting and helping him to prepare.

He also helped position and direct his brother 'C', who graciously and dutifully obeyed (they just cracked me up, although I made sure to only do it inwardly). You could tell each was used to his role as younger or older brother and in all seriousness they have a very sweet brotherly bond.

Of course, little sister 'L' could not have been cuter. She has the most amazing big brown eyes, which I found completely mesmerizing and completely different to my three little ones with their blue eyes.

Family Shoot Sneak Peak

2009-11-14T23:37:00.000-08:00

Last weekend I took some family photos. Here is a little sneak peak.

The Johnsons with their children, it had been a while since their last family photograph.

The whole family, including the childrens' spouses and their children.

We also did some individual shots of the families.

Baby Feet

2009-08-27T22:50:00.001-07:00

Babies are so lovely, in all their miniature perfection. Today I had the pleasure of photographing baby 'C' and there is just something about baby feet that always gets me. There are some other cute shots too, but I had to include the feet, they are just so kissable.

And a sneak peak at his adorable face :)

True Love

2009-08-04T13:14:00.000-07:00

I was second shooter at my first wedding on Saturday... it was a very full day! Congratulations to Luke and Melody, the new Mr. and Mrs. Johnson.

Happy Father's Day

2009-06-21T23:15:00.000-07:00

These three little munchkins adore their daddy! He is such a wonderful father, so caring, fun, loving and kind. When he walks in the door at the end of the day, yells of

"DADDY! DADDY!"

erupt as they run to fling arms around his waist, or knees. Asia does a daddy's-home-dance which consists of running round the kitchen in a circle as fast as she can (which is not very fast).

He has so much love to give to those in his life. He wears his heart on his sleeve and we are all better people for being loved by him. I love to see him with his children, he does not hold back any part of himself and showers them with love and affection. There is no fear, they know they are safe and loved and cherished.

Happy Father's Day my love! Thank you for being the best daddy and giving me the amazing gift of these beautiful children.

So precious

2009-06-04T23:35:00.000-07:00

Well my friend Melinda, whose maternity shots I did a few weeks back, had her baby a little over a week ago. Ever since, I had been itching to get over there and have my first attempts at newborn photography.

Well it finally happened!

Little 'Miss A' is adorable. I got a little teary-eyed holding her, in all her new tiny perfection, knowing that I would never hold a newborn of my own again (not withstanding a miracle of course). It's such a precious, wonderful stage of life, that is gone in the blink of an eye.

This is exactly why I love photography so much; I live so much in the present that it is hard for me to remember, as I look at my children now, how they were. Photos can take me back there, bring the memories and feelings flooding back in an instant. What a privilege to be able to help preserve that for others too.

Here is a little sneak peek.

Hurray for friends!

2009-05-18T18:18:00.000-07:00

I love taking photographs of my kids and creating a visual memory of some of the things that we do together. So often they feel like snapshots, which have a true worth of their own, but I would love to do more with my photography. For now I am reading and practicing and learning as much as I can.

To achieve our dreams, we need to have specific goals and take steps to actually reach them, to not just keep dreaming. Very rarely will things 'just happen' without some work to 'get there'.

A step I need to take is practicing outside of my family, so last week I took my first ever maternity photos. My guinea pig was a good friend of mine. She is tall and beautiful and despite being in the last weeks of her pregnancy, looks amazing and was a true sport. The lighting conditions were not ideal as it was the middle of the day, but her Mom had graciously agreed to watch all four kids (my three and her one) so we could do this and that added to working around nap times...well I'm just grateful to get whatever I can. Hopefully in a couple of weeks there will be a gorgeous little newborn to practice on too.

I am still wading through and editing the results, which has been a lot more time consuming than I had anticipated, but I am learning and enjoying it. If only I had more time. I am about half way through on black and white conversions, before tackling a few to try as color.

Here is just a little sneak peak!

Just a sweet capture of her with her current 'baby' who in
a short while will seem like such a big girl.

Bryttain my beauty

2009-05-06T18:55:00.000-07:00

Today was a day to spend some time with my beauty and take some photos.

She jumped at the chance to put on a dress...but it was short lived. It was fun for all of fifteen minutes. Oh well, I'll take what I can get.

Here she is singing and dancing...she really is so much fun and full of life.

Love her to bits!

Shear madness?

2009-04-21T21:11:00.000-07:00

A haircut has been long overdue for Arran and with the temperature being up to 90 degrees the last couple of days, it was time to take action. We went out to the front porch, armed with scissors and clippers...and now he has a new do, the shortest he's ever had.

He loves it!

I'm still getting used to it, it is a big change, but he is still as good looking as ever!

Arran James Angus Cannan

2009-02-22T23:35:00.000-08:00

My firstborn.

My son.

I remember driving home from the hospital with our darling baby boy, so tiny in his car seat, crying the whole way. I remember gazing at him, amazed, incredulous that this fragile baby was ours. He was reliant on us for everything. He could not speak to us at that point and we were constantly referring to our baby books, for everything, but we had an immediate, unbreakable bond. It was all so new, and scary, and overwhelming, and so wonderful.

He changed my life forever.

I just do not know where the time has gone. He is an amazing little boy, who has blessed my life, who constantly showers us with love and affection. He will countless times in his day, stop whatever he is doing, just look at me and say, so emphatically

"Mommy...I LOVE you!"

He'll flash me a grin, or sometimes run over and fling his arms around my neck and plant a kiss on my cheek, then go back to whatever he was doing before.

He notices the littlest things, like if I change earrings, or shoes. He tells me I'm pretty and thanks me for cooking our meals. He tells me that everyone in the whole world is his friend and he loves them all.

And now, as of February 10th, he is five!

I love his excitement. I love that he enjoys life, but is sensitive to others. I love that he is a little boy, who is coming into his own, who loves to run and play and have fun and who has a crazy imagination.

I love you Arran! I am so glad that you are in my life!

As stubborn as they get :)

2008-10-25T23:30:00.000-07:00

OK, so she may refuse to look at the camera, but she's still gorgeous.
My niece 'M'.

Little Peanut

2008-09-18T22:44:00.000-07:00

Today I had the chance to take some photos of a good friend's baby. It was fun, and I enjoyed the extra practice on a new model.

She's such a cute little peanut and I even got to hold her (for maybe a minute) as I didn't have my own baby with me...what a concept.

I really need to be taking more photos, of not just MY kids :)

Sweet Girls

2008-08-21T21:00:00.000-07:00

I have been blessed in my life to have some amazing friends and I love to see at this new phase of life, my children now having such great friendships, with friends' children. We had a fun playdate at a park this afternoon, the kids got to play and the moms were able to have adult conversations.

I of course had my camera with me and managed to persuade these sweethearts to look at me a few times.

Sweet and sensitive 'M'

Full of life and passion 'A'

Asia

2007-12-05T22:09:00.000-08:00

Here is my precious baby girl, she is four days old and I am besotted.

She truly takes my breath away.

I will never cease be surprised and amazed by the miracle of life and the instant bond we have with our children. The ability we have to fall in love all over again and yet never to run out of the love that we have for the others.