Saturday, February 6, 2016

February Project - Photo A Day - Day 6

It's been a long week with Daddy gone and today was meltdown central. I think a combination of tiredness and an inability to articulate emotions, all combined, multiplied by three kids, and the results were not pretty. Towards the end of the day, much later than I would have liked, we headed out to Buchanan Dog Beach. It had been such a nice day, but we were losing light fast. As they headed down from the main path to the shore's edge I watched their silhouettes.

Finally they seemed to have made peace with each other and I breathed a sigh of relief. The countdown is on until we are all reunited again and it can't come soon enough.


(As in years past, I've decided to do the February photo project and take a photo a day. It never hurts to have a bit of discipline and with all our transitions my creativity has been sorely lacking, so I'm looking forward to jumping back in. No real rules, just our life documented a little. Maybe there'll be captions, maybe not, there could be the occasional phone photo thrown in on busier days and sometimes it may be hard to narrow things down and there could be bonus photos. I'd love for you to follow along, or even join in. Let me know!)

Friday, February 5, 2016

February Project - Photo A Day - Day 5

Even big boys sometimes get to bed too late and are woken too early. I seriously can't remember though, the last time he actually napped during the day, it took me back to sweet toddler times. Only a short twenty minutes, but he woke up with the fresh perspective he needed.

Taken with iphone, because the best camera is the one you have with you in the moment.


(As in years past, I've decided to do the February photo project and take a photo a day. It never hurts to have a bit of discipline and with all our transitions my creativity has been sorely lacking, so I'm looking forward to jumping back in. No real rules, just our life documented a little. Maybe there'll be captions, maybe not, there could be the occasional phone photo thrown in on busier days and sometimes it may be hard to narrow things down and there could be bonus photos. I'd love for you to follow along, or even join in. Let me know!)

Thursday, February 4, 2016

February Project - Photo A Day - Day 4

Such a sweet friendship. These girls have been friends since they can ever remember and there's something about those types of friendships; the safety and security and feeling of complete ease around each other. It really can't be beat. Love simple, precious moments like these.


(As in years past, I've decided to do the February photo project and take a photo a day. It never hurts to have a bit of discipline and with all our transitions my creativity has been sorely lacking, so I'm looking forward to jumping back in. No real rules, just our life documented a little. Maybe there'll be captions, maybe not, there could be the occasional phone photo thrown in on busier days and sometimes it may be hard to narrow things down and there could be bonus photos. I'd love for you to follow along, or even join in. Let me know!)

Wednesday, February 3, 2016

February Project - Photo A Day - Day 3

We all miss Daddy terribly when he is gone. At times like these I am so incredibly grateful for technology and the ability to Facetime, it's a highlight of the day and makes this world seem a little bit smaller.


(As in years past, I've decided to do the February photo project and take a photo a day. It never hurts to have a bit of discipline and with all our transitions my creativity has been sorely lacking, so I'm looking forward to jumping back in. No real rules, just our life documented a little. Maybe there'll be captions, maybe not, there could be the occasional phone photo thrown in on busier days and sometimes it may be hard to narrow things down and there could be bonus photos. I'd love for you to follow along, or even join in. Let me know!)

Tuesday, February 2, 2016

February Project - Photo A Day - Day 2

As in years past, I've decided to do the February photo project and take a photo a day. It never hurts to have a bit of discipline and with all our transitions my creativity has been sorely lacking, so I'm looking forward to jumping back in. No real rules, just our life documented a little. Maybe there'll be captions, maybe not, there could be the occasional phone photo thrown in on busier days and sometimes it may be hard to narrow things down and there could be bonus photos. I'd love for you to follow along, or even join in. Let me know!



And then there's this guy; Scout our beloved puggle! He's such a happy doggie, who covers a ton of ground at great speed and with great glee. He makes us all smile with his perfect mix of crazy outdoors and couch potato indoors, he most definitely is a part of the family.

Monday, February 1, 2016

February Project - Photo A Day - Day 1

As in years past, I've decided to do the February photo project and take a photo a day. It never hurts to have a bit of discipline and with all our transitions my creativity has been sorely lacking, so I'm looking forward to jumping back in. No real rules, just our life documented a little. Maybe there'll be captions, maybe not, there could be the occasional phone photo thrown in on busier days and sometimes it may be hard to narrow things down and there could be bonus photos. I'd love for you to follow along, or even join in. Let me know!

This beautiful child, my middle, my first daughter. Most obliging to pose for Mom in front of the camera. Thanks Bryt!

Wednesday, January 27, 2016

January 2016 - Long Overdue Update

Life doesn’t always go as we planned or maybe hoped for. Our last eighteen months have been far from what we expected. A great job meant an international move and starting over, which emotionally was, initially, incredibly hard. Then, slowly, finding a new normal and feeling hope again…only to have it all ripped away. The job was cut, and our new life came crashing down around us. We returned to the life we had left, except that we had ended that life; the things that had been part of that season were gone and we literally have had to start over, again, from scratch.

I won’t lie, it has been hard. I have had moments of complete desperation, feeling utter hopelessness. The nice Christian word for it is ‘challenging’, but honestly that doesn’t even begin to describe what we have been through. Were it not for the kindness of family, we would have been homeless. It is hard to accept, or talk about and I was hoping to write again from ‘the other side’, looking back with it all making much more sense. But that place seems to still be just beyond the current horizon.

Maybe it will help others to hear from ‘in’ this journey, not once it has been completed. I know that this is not a punishment; I know that God does not play favorites; I also know there are consequences for decisions made by us and others, that the actions of others can have repercussions for us. Sometimes things just happen because we live in a world that is far from perfect and there isn’t a God controlling everything that happens, there is free will, but that means that bad things can happen and He weeps too, when they do!

Sometimes when I don’t have the words left to express what I am feeling, a song will. There is a song by Casting Crowns that speaks to a little of what we have lived

‘I was sure by now
God you would have reached down
And wiped our tears away
Stepped in and saved the day
But once again, I say “Amen”, and it’s still raining

As the thunder rolls
I barely hear Your whisper through the rain
“I’m with you”
And as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God who gives
And takes away

And I’ll praise You in this storm
And I will lift my hands
For You are who You are
No matter where I am
And every tear I’ve cried
You hold in Your hand
You never left my side
And though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm’

There were moments when I was not praising, I was just barely holding on, wondering what on earth, and why? But He uses it all. Ultimately we will be stronger for going through this season and surviving, we will be more compassionate, more flexible.

The words from another song have struck me on several occasions

‘Your world’s not falling apart it’s falling into place…’

Oh how I hope this is true for us, because I felt like our world fell apart.

It is so very hard to not have answers, to live in a state of uncertainty, not knowing what is next,  no plan, no map with the directions to follow. The day to day can still be difficult, but the good news is I am well past the initial heartache and feelings of desperation and am hopeful again. We are not stuck where we were, we were not abandoned and there will be a way forward, even if that path is currently shrouded in fog.

I took this photo yesterday, the first deliberate photo in far too long, just because it struck me as simple but beautiful. I decided to look up the symbolism of feathers and guess what…

A feather symbolizes a new beginning - a new life ahead. A feather symbolizes hope.

How perfect!

Sunday, June 21, 2015

Happy Father's Day - 2015

Many of our traditions have had to go with our international move, but I'm not letting go of this one any time soon. Each year for Father's Day, since our youngest was about 18 months, I have taken this shot of the three of them. I love to see documentation of them changing and it is one of my favourite traditions.

These kids adore their Daddy and I do too! He is a wonderful man who knows how to love well. Not just us, his family, he loves everyone. Nobody is beneath him and no one is more deserving of his love than another. You could be the Queen of England, or a homeless man on the street and he would still show you love and have time for you.

I am so grateful to share my life with the man who passed down the 'crazy' in these kiddos, because they certainly don't get that from me! Happy Father's Day James, I am so very proud of the father you are and we are blessed to be your family.


Saturday, February 28, 2015

Photo a Day February 2015 - Day 28

This is a personal kick start project, a photo a day for the month of February.

And just like that the month is over. Thanks for following along.




Even crazier, nine years have flown by. This girl brings joy and energy to our family and today was a day to celebrate her.

Monday, February 16, 2015

Sunday, February 15, 2015

Photo a Day February 2015 - Day 15

This is a personal kick start project, a photo a day for the month of February.


Somebody went to a birthday party and got her face painted.

Thursday, February 12, 2015

Photo a Day February 2015 - Day 12

This is a personal kick start project, a photo a day for the month of February.

Sometimes you have to be home all morning (potentially all day) just waiting for the postman. Not the most fun, but it leaves you time for taking selfies :P

Tuesday, February 10, 2015

Photo a Day February 2015 - Day 10

This is a personal kick start project, a photo a day for the month of February.

Eleven. What he wanted more than anything was to fly back to America to hang out with his cousin and go to Ping's for his favourite Chinese Food. 

If only it was that easy. Sigh. 

Thankfully he has a great attitude and loved that it was his special day. He is such a great kid and makes it hard to be around him as happy as he is without being impacted. Just as he requested, he did get a homemade chocolate cake. Hoping and praying for a great year ahead of him.

Monday, February 9, 2015

Photo a Day February 2015 - Day 9

This is a personal kick start project, a photo a day for the month of February.


It's been ten years since we lost our Mum. Ten years today. That's a long time. A long time for memories to still feel fresh and pain to still feel raw. It's easier to just push it aside most of the time, but as the anniversary draws closer, it always gets harder...so I keep pushing, until the day, and then I have a little fall apart. 

This year is different than the years before. Before I was far away, I could pretend, because I wouldn't have the opportunity to see her anyway, but now I am back in my old home country, where she was, faced with the very stark reality that she is not here with us. It is just so very sad. I know that she would have been overjoyed at our return, to get to spend time with her grand-kids, to have us all together again. 

I feel like there aren't many ways to remember her. I don't know if she had a favourite food, or something that she loved to do, because she was always about serving everybody else. The only way I have to remember and celebrate her is to buy freesias, so that is what I do every year.

But this year, after dropping the kids at school, in this new place where we live, I could not find a single florist open. So I traipsed the streets alone, feeling sad, then came home and texted my brothers and sister. The date is easy for me to remember, because it is the day before my son's birthday, but I don't know if others have chosen to remember it or not...it's delicate ground.

I went out again, later in the day and found one florist open, but no freesias and no suggestion of where I might find some. Two other florists were closed for the day. It just added to the hopelessness of it all. So I had to settle for a little bouquet with roses instead. Simple (and it was on sale, which Mum would have appreciated) but roses are my favourite, not hers and it wasn't what I wanted for today.